nearing the end...

hi people, quite a lot of things happened today that i think i need to pen it down before my mind forgets them. b4 i move on to today, let me go slightly backwards and mention my farewell to my 'fav' class. For that class, i was quite happy that some actually asked me questions like 'cher, i thought u leaving in May?', 'cher, why you need to leave?' after i told them the news. Of cos', the class clown and his partner clapped (i believe, cheekily) and i was quite happy to see that no one else followed along and the boy in front of him actually asked him to stop it.

OK, back to my focus for today. Said farewell to two other classes too and asked them each to complete a feedback form for me. For one class, some of them gave me rather cutting remarks which i will not reveal here. It's so sad. For the rest of the class, they gave honest feedback and i'll try to improve on whatever i can. Some commented that lessons became boring later on but i guess they didn't know the constraints that i was working under. With so many assignments to ask them to do, mark and do corrections with them (all came to me at quite a late moment), how interesting can my lessons get? Yes, I'd like to but with constraints of system, I can't. Guess the alternative is to find out the expectations right from the start and schedule things. Basically, I feel that the constraints of the system here doesn't encourage that, what's more with classroom observations where we can't afford to jeopardise.

alrite, the next class. Yup, my lit class was quite sweet. Heard groans when i told them i was leaving. :) Didn't really expect that, cos' i think my ACT (their lit teacher) is really very good in her teaching and relationship with them. When i first took over the class, i was thinking it's gonna be hard to win them, i'm sure they'd compare and wish that i was gone sooner. Surprsingly, it didn't turn out that way. Of cos' , i'm not saying that i surpassed my ACT. That, to me, sounds quite impossible, and is definitely not my aim, neither my preoccupation. I felt that while they definitely hold my ACT in high regard, they would also like me to teach them. :) quite happy and they held a mini-party in the canteen for me. I mean, it may be a small event but it's v significant to me when students show their appreciation. I find that a lot of students these days do not show it at all, in the first place, they don't care much about the teacher, they only care about themselves. So, v. happy that they did that, even though it felt a bit awkward at times - our rapport isn't that good yet but it surely has built up..and when i got the feedback forms from this class, I feel that they are just being honest and not trying to put me down. e.g. when someone wrote that the lessons were, at times, boring, she added "no offence". I was also happy when i read that someone asks me to come back to the school.

I guess yah, I can't please everyone. Help thou me to do things according to the best of my ability and leave the rest to GOD. After all, I'm not a man-pleaser.

alrite, v. sleepy now...Zzzz..