the end

Hi people, finally it's the end of my practicum! pardon my writing now as i'm sort of in a sleepy daze...yet, it's such a milestone day that i wanna record it down.. i'm very very happy that today is my last day of practicum...29 April - the date that i've been waiting for. the date that seemed so far away initially. When I listened to the radio in February, there were only announcements of events happening in March...i could not see april, and what's more april 29!

;p ;p ;p, just very happy! I know it's kinda worrying when i know i'll have to do this non-stop for 3 years. Just 2 months and I'm already looking forward to it...But i think the experiences will differ..anyway, we all need a break, it's good that i can have one now...as for the rest, we'll worry about it as it comes along.

Had sushi and coffee as mini-celebration with a fellow trainee teacher in my school. :) First time, we can talk about things without having to worry to prepare for a lesson for tom ;) It's not that I don't miss my students but perhaps, hm...let me think...i could be disappointed with some of them and most importantly, the constraints of the system (workload, working relationships) just made me so glad to have a break...

i've learnt many many lessons from this practicum and I'm still chewing on some of them. The crucial thing is that through this practicum, I really see God's faithfulness, mercy and grace and guiding me throughout everything. These range from disappointment, fear and dread regarding my 'favourite' class, feelings of frustration and sadness when my laptop crashed, feelings of stress and worry when i learnt that i might fail practicum n i had to put up with unwarranted criticisms, my feelings of happiness when my lit class said they wanted me back to teach them and held a little party for me. These are just some of the feelings I felt during this period...I feel that i've gone through so much (not that it is truly HARDship) in just 2 months. Like i told my fren, most of the time, it seems like i'm quite down...but of cos' God sprinkles some good ones on me too.

GOD, thank you so so much! for sustaining me even when my body is physically tired, for giving me the courage to face my fears, for helping me to go on even when I feel really quite depressed and for granting me favour with some of the people (practicum-related). Thank you. I could never have made it without you.

To my dear frens who are reading this, thank you for counting down with me too...: ) I'm just very happy ;p Now, to bed, Zzz...