Fear

i wonder. today a student (from my t class) asked me "What's the use of doing this? exam also won't come out". For a moment i'm stunned. Honestly, sometimes i wonder if i'm just filling up students' time (which i know should not be the case), whether everything needs to be exam-oriented. My worst fear is the former, for it does not benefit the class. However, sometimes honestly, with the constraint of marking and other workloads, it is hard not to do that for a few lessons. Worse still, i fear that subconsciously i may have given up on the class. Pardon my rather erratic thoughts today. Just thinking aloud what I'm doing in school, particularly with my t class. GOD, forbid that I should give up on them- grant me the faith, the physical and mental strength to prepare my lessons in the midst of the demanding profession.

m i an entertainer, a babysitter, a tamer?... i thought i am a teacher. Teach thou me, LORD.